May 10th, Entry 35

So what's been going on in my life? Well, not a lot of things. It has been quite boring honestly. Collin leaves Sunday... I'm not ready for it...I'm going to bawl my eyes out. I think we're going to take break while he's away, but honestly, I don't feel that I'm going to even try to talk to other guys while he's gone. Collin has made quite the impression on me. Last Saturday at Grand March for prom, when I was holding my niece, my little girl, I love her so much; he had a smile on his face while look down at us. I truly care about him. Much more than I did Brian, which is insane to think about. I like Collin way more than I did Brian in the 11 months we dated in his a single month.
    But back to him leaving, I'm excited that he's leaving, I truly am. I'm glad he's doing what he wants to. He was concerned about leaving with a girlfriend, which I understand. He's going to have so much on his mind anyway, which is why I'm completely okay with taking a break while he's at boot camp. I think he still wants to go to Mississippi when he gets back and before school starts next year. Which is another thing, I'm going to be senior. I'm freaked out by that. Just writing about it is making me tear up.

Onto a happier thing, the evening of our last day of school, May 31, Laura, hopefully Paige, and I are going to see Destrophy again. I know, Mrs. Strand, Again? You were right, Laura and I are pretty much groupies for the band, in the best way possible. We go because we love their music. Also because we have tons and tons of friends that are associated with the band. There's Sam, Shawn, Dee, Jason, Natalie, Mark, Sebastian, Tara, Sara, Mary, Ari, Joe, Phil, Bruce, Randi, Erik, Spencer, Seth, Joey, Eric, and more. Like I said, we've made a ton of friends because of the guys of Destrophy. We can't wait to go to the show. This time they're playing with another band we like, Otep, who is a female black metal singer from LA. Interestingly enough, she's gay, and she kind of sounds like a man when she's performing. But we love her. Otep Shamaya. Man, I can't wait. But I guess that's enough for today.

Rakastaa,

Liz