May 12, 2011 Entry 36

I recently saw a news clip of a young girl of seven years old that had cupped ears and one ear was lopped or curled over. Her parents took her to a plastic surgeon who is part of a free surgery for children with abnormalities to correct the ears and pin them back to stop the teasing and bullying she was facing at school. I completely disagree with the parents and the plastic surgeons views, they feel that it will stop the bullying on the child and help her form a self identity. The thing is, it's not going to be self identity anymore, she was changed to make her seem more normal looking, but now, she's just another victim of America's new ideology that everyone has to be perfect. Well, I mean it's not really a new ideology but it's certainly more progressed now. For the parents to think that the bullying will stop because they fixed her ears is utter ludicrous. If anything, the surgery will make it worse. Children are vile and cruel in schools. It's a dog eat dog world. If you aren't getting picked on you're the one that's picking on others usually. Especially in bigger schools. It's very hard to stay invisible. Even if you are invisible you aren't free and clear of being subjected to the cruelties of the world. I think that the parents should have waited a few years before the surgery, who knows, the ears could have been what truly defined her character. Maybe she'll be a totally different person now, maybe, just maybe she'll become the bully.

May 10th, Entry 35

So what's been going on in my life? Well, not a lot of things. It has been quite boring honestly. Collin leaves Sunday... I'm not ready for it...I'm going to bawl my eyes out. I think we're going to take break while he's away, but honestly, I don't feel that I'm going to even try to talk to other guys while he's gone. Collin has made quite the impression on me. Last Saturday at Grand March for prom, when I was holding my niece, my little girl, I love her so much; he had a smile on his face while look down at us. I truly care about him. Much more than I did Brian, which is insane to think about. I like Collin way more than I did Brian in the 11 months we dated in his a single month.
    But back to him leaving, I'm excited that he's leaving, I truly am. I'm glad he's doing what he wants to. He was concerned about leaving with a girlfriend, which I understand. He's going to have so much on his mind anyway, which is why I'm completely okay with taking a break while he's at boot camp. I think he still wants to go to Mississippi when he gets back and before school starts next year. Which is another thing, I'm going to be senior. I'm freaked out by that. Just writing about it is making me tear up.

Onto a happier thing, the evening of our last day of school, May 31, Laura, hopefully Paige, and I are going to see Destrophy again. I know, Mrs. Strand, Again? You were right, Laura and I are pretty much groupies for the band, in the best way possible. We go because we love their music. Also because we have tons and tons of friends that are associated with the band. There's Sam, Shawn, Dee, Jason, Natalie, Mark, Sebastian, Tara, Sara, Mary, Ari, Joe, Phil, Bruce, Randi, Erik, Spencer, Seth, Joey, Eric, and more. Like I said, we've made a ton of friends because of the guys of Destrophy. We can't wait to go to the show. This time they're playing with another band we like, Otep, who is a female black metal singer from LA. Interestingly enough, she's gay, and she kind of sounds like a man when she's performing. But we love her. Otep Shamaya. Man, I can't wait. But I guess that's enough for today.

Rakastaa,

Liz